Don’t be an injured soul who walks through a pain-filled life.

Those injured souls; the people who walk gently through life, filled with a pain they can neither explain nor deny. Many can barely remember when it began and have little faith it will end.

by Alexa Keating

child-438373_640It is consuming, this pain that filters their life through a lens of gray.

Where did it all begin?

Can they control how it ends?

The moment a child inhales the first breath of life, their innate senses instantly assess the energy that surrounds its birth.

Is there great joy in their anticipated arrival?

Is there trauma due to some irregular event during the birth process?

Is there strife and turmoil the mother is facing in her life?

Was the pregnancy unwanted, inconvenient or desired to be terminated?

At this moment, the soul ‘knows’ its worth. The innate sees only truth and the determination of the emotions surrounding the birth are conveyed to the child. This tiny newborn baby is now aware of the energy it began this new journey in; it does not question the truth it has received..

The innate senses see, hear and feel only truth and the determination of the emotions surrounding the birth are conveyed to the child.

This tiny newborn baby is now aware of the energy it began this new journey in; it does not question the truth it has received.

Whatever the interpretation, this is a deeply embedded memory imprint that colors the way the child sees every event in life. There are signs that this may be the origin of your emotional pain.

  1. You generally feel unwelcome in groups, at work or even in your family environment.
  2. You may question how one or both of your parents actually feel about you even as a child. For no discernible reason, you feel unloved or unwanted. You may not expect too much from your parents or family members.
  3. You strive to be a peacemaker in the family, easily accepting the crumbs of affection or anything else to keep the peace. You may be proud of what you can live without.
  4. You strive to over achieve in other areas such as work or sports to prove your value.
  5. You feel detached from joy; you may smile and even be happy about things that happen in your life, but true joy eludes you. You may not understand it.
  6. You may have many OCD traits. Things need to be orderly and tidy in your life. The raging energy of being unwanted causes chaotic emotions on the inside. This drives you to ensure everything is in its place on the outside.
  7. You rarely feel really good about yourself; you may engage in denigrating comments about your appearance or your personal worth because you simply accept those things as truth. You may also make extreme efforts to mask these feelings by going to the gym; being really fit or presenting a carefully manicured appearance that says ‘I am on top of my game.’
  8. You may find yourself a victim of bullying, even in your own family. This may follow to domestic violence or abuse in the workplace in adulthood. You may also fail to recognize when this is happening to you. It is easy to fall into delusional relationships; they feel comfortable.
  9. You may seek out relationships that appear to allow you to be the controller when the reality is that you are controlled. Outwardly, your partner may allow others to imagine you are ‘in charge,’ but both silently know this is not true.
  10. You feel like a fraud. Even if you have earned outstanding achievement awards, deep down you imagine that everyone could do it. You rarely entertain the idea that you have talents that surpass the norm. You explain your achievements as simply hard work.

You may be encouraged to find that even if your birth was not heralded as a long-awaited event for some reason, things may have changed dramatically as circumstances changed. What did not change is what you believe, because it was

What did not change is what you believe, because it was truth when you arrived. Your responses to events in your life are all colored by this perception.

You may find it really helpful to take a moment to write down the most prominent events in your life, the ones that hurt the worst, or are the most difficult to understand. Whether they are really significant in the eyes of others or simply something you cannot forget, they are important to the path you are on today.

Whether they are really significant in the eyes of others or simply something you cannot forget, they are important to the path you are on today.

Note them; then look at them through the eyes of a person who understands that there is a false perception behind the manner you interpreted the event. Because there was; the false perception is that you were never welcome and never had any real worth.

Would the situation have looked different to you had you known?

Would your response have been different?

If you had understood, would that have affected your future and how you felt about the event?

The eyes of your innocence may well be the beginning of a path you never understood, a pain you never could suppress.

It is so worth making the effort to look closely and see if this is the balm that can finally cover the wound.

Learn to love yourself, and know that you are valuable beyond any measure; this is the truth you were intended to enter your life in.

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To learn more about this author and her available books, please visit http://www.arkconnect.com.

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